Yesterday Bella had a seizure & my world stopped….

Bella at 9 weeks old, the week after we brought her home.

The day was going well, I stepped into the kitchen to make some lunch while Bella relaxed on the rug as she often does in the afternoon. It took only a few minutes to whip up a kale salad & an omelette but when I returned to the living room – she was suddenly shaking.

It was almost undetectable at first, a slight steady back & forth of her head but those big brown eyes staring up at me told me she knew this wasn’t normal. I said her name & rubbed her back. The shaking intensified and her entire body felt like it was stiffening. She raised her paw as if to reach out to me, but it stayed there, stuck mid-air then more shaking. I started to panic.

3mths old & enjoying her neighborhood walk…

Not knowing what to do or what was happening, I called her name a few times – or kinda yelled it – this was scaring the hell out of me! Clearly there was nothing she could do to help me help her. I immediately thought ‘take her to the animal hospital but I couldn’t so I called her dad at work. He picked up as I was mid-sentence pleading with Bella to please be okay which naturally made him anxious wondering what the hell was going on. I tried and failed to calmly explain to him what was happening -  I thought she was having a stroke as it sure looked that way. Something was definitely wrong & admittedly, I’m not the best in crisis situations so to say my emotions were running high was an understatement. No question. He was on the way home & fortunately, only working about 20 minutes away.

3mths old – my favorite picture of her.

What happened in the next 10 minutes only made things worse, somewhat confirming my thinking. Quickly I ran upstairs to toss on some shoes & when I returned, her paw was back on the floor & she was struggling to stand up, her hind legs were so weak beneath her. Being outdoors lightens her every mood so I asked if she had to potty, hoping this was some really odd case of digestive trouble while trying to seem normal (I was NOT successful). She stumbled to the door in a squat position but once outside she seemed confused and definitely not her normal self fueled by sunshine & the energetic sound of the neighborhood kids. Fortunately, no kids were home from school yet so none of them saw her in such a scary state but my heart was sinking.

Her favorite nap spot as a puppy – covered in her pink cloud blanket & laying on mommy’s Hello Kitty slippers.

A neighbor was outside with a plumber hired to fix a water leak at his house. The plumber approached me to ask about my water meter but paused mid-sentence when he noticed Bella’s condition & asked if she was okay. I said no & that I thought she had just had a stroke as I was easing her back inside the house. I heard him apologize & noticed the shocked look on my neighbor’s face as I quickly closed the screen door to tend back to Bella.

playing at Pet Smart as a puppy – she thinks everyone’s a friend, they got along fine.

She unsteadily managed a few steps inside making it to the powder room floor & just as I slowly approached & called her name, she fell to her side, hard – all of her weight crashing into the floor. I screamed!

I pleaded with her to lay down but she kept trying to get up & each time she fell down again & again. She looked terrified. It felt like a nightmare I just wanted to wake up from, I felt helpless! My neighbor rushed over after hearing my screams & immediately asked what should he do?! I asked if he could take us to the animal hospital. He quickly agreed & said he would pull his car as close to the door as possible.

reluctantly posing for the camera

I called her father back to let him know the plan. By this time, Bella had given up trying to stand & was on the floor where she last fell, stuck. As I hurriedly answered his questions, I could tell he was trying not to panic, but being far away & hearing this sudden madness going on at home, I could only imagine how badly he felt. My neighbor returned & was on the floor checking Bella out, guiding her eyes with his fingers & checking her limbs for injury.

After a few minutes, she was quiet & her tail was wagging again. She loves Kyle, his wife & their adorable three-year old daughter. My baby Bella – the neighborhood social butterfly & lover of people, especially kids, still showing her hospitality despite being wounded.

my boo-boo bear…. oh that face!

So there we sat, on my hallway floor, Kyle, Bella & me. He was calmly stroking her coat as he shared how his dog once had a seizure due to ingesting cigarettes butts. He understood my panic & agreed that when you see it for the first time, its terrifying because you don’t know what’s happening. Since her father was now getting closer to home, we decided to wait for him considering she was calmer now & didn’t seem to be in any pain with the sweet wagging of her tail.

her favorite place in the world, next to her papa

We heard the garage door go up – one of her major triggers of excitement because she knows her papa’s home. As expected, she barked her anxiousness and attempted to get up but we both insisted she stay still & she did. Once he walked in, her tail was wagging even more & she raised up anxious to see him as if the last the 10 minutes never happened. Amazing!

Bella & her buddy Colby. Bella is 4. Colby is 7mths. I’ve never seen a dog grow so fast!

Having called the vet on his way home, she was expecting us so off we went. Bella was fine on the ride there & excited as we pulled up. The animal hospital is familiar territory that she’s known from her first check-up since she was a puppy of 8 weeks. Our wonderful vet checked her stats – all normal & then took a few blood samples.

We’ll get the results tomorrow but she educated us on what, according to her professional opinion, sounds like a seizure. Bella is a yellow lab & per the doc, her breed is the 3rd highest for seizure conditions. Scary. At four years old, she’s never had one before & while we were aware of other hereditary conditions associated with labs such as joint issues and arthritis, we were not aware of seizures as a known condition. It could be nothing or it could be something. She might never have another or she could have several.

the most fun ever! her favorite way to spend her time.

Doc said some of her pet-clients are the best predictors of thunderstorms because they always have a seizure before one comes along. She educated us on what to do should this happen again. As suspected, my panic-stricken screams didn’t help Bella any but first-timers are allowed all the emotions of an unknown frightening situation such as this. Kyle was able to calm her better than I could (hence the tail wagging at his arrival) considering pets tend to absorb our emotional state so my stressing didn’t help her any. Sorry, Bellz. :sad:

refusing to pose while wearing her rain gear. such a moody one, that Bella

Doc said some parents are able to soothe their dogs out of having a seizure (when they spot the signs) just by turning off anything stimulating, dimming the lights & speaking softly while rubbing them.

I’ll have to remember that next time. But here’s hoping there won’t be a next time.

Bella – relaxing in her bed & no doubt recalling yesterday’s “adventure”.

here’s the kicker to all that happened yesterday…. hours before her seizure – I watched this clip on YouTube. It brought tears to my eyes. After I watched it, I sat beside Bella, rubbed her belly & said a lil prayer that she’ll be with us for a long time to come… strange how things happen. I had no idea what would occur just hours later but I’m so extremely thankful she’s still here.

gorgeous prints under $50

Prints add texture to an outfit when worn correctly. Too much print can make you look completely overwhelmed by fashion but tastefully done, in small doses or paired against a nice solid color and you’re ready for the day!

Here’s a variety of stylish prints for under $50.

  • H&M Skirt

  • $16 (£9.95) - hm.com

  • Fergalicious Alana Zebra Flat – Zebra

  • $30 - dsw.com

  • H&M Dress

  • $24 (£15) - hm.com

  • Daytrip Abstract Print Tank Top

  • $28 - buckle.com

  • Pink And Lemon Flower Print Bandeau Playsuit

  • $25 (£16) - debenhams.com

  • Flowers Print Yellow Shirt

  • $31 - romwe.com


peachy spring dresses under $100…

peach is a color not celebrated often but its delicate hue ranges from an almost off-white with a stain of peach to a deeper pre-coral tint…

here are some lovely dresses in this perfect spring color all under $100…

 

it’s not just the wiggle

Wiggle the wand at the base of the lashes for less clumping and a better finish. That’s mascara 101 right?

But it’s actually more about the wand than the wiggle, that’s the secret to sexy lashes! Read on for some tips!

Goal: Zero Clumps

Go for: Thick, widely spaced bristles to help distribute the mascara broadly, allowing for minimal build-up.

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Example: Nuance Salma Hayek Full Effect Ultra-Volumizing Mascara ($10 – cvs)

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Goal: Extra Length

Go for: Tightly packed bristles because they function like a fine-tooth comb elongating each lash by gently tugging it up & out.

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Example: Dior Diorshow New Look Mascara ($29 – dior.com)

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Goal: volume

Go for: A big brush = fat fringe because more bristles coat more lashes.

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Example: CoverGirl LashBlast 24 Hour Mascara ($9 – drugstores)

*** I’ve used this mascara & the bristles are definitely bigger than average. I have fine lashes so I sometimes get too much mascara on my lashes but works well if your lashes are naturally full and thick not thin***

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Goal: Precision

Go for: An extra-firm tip because it grabs & covers even teensy lashes such as the outer corners of the eye.

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Example: (definitely gonna try this) – Shiseido Perfect Mascara Full Definition ($24 – shiseido.com)

Thanks to More Magazine for featuring this wonderful piece of beauty news!

Have vs. Need

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I remember my first job as a retail clerk in a sporting goods store. I was 16 and earning minimum wage. A wage I wasn’t earning before obtaining my first job, yet it didn’t take long before this previously non-existent income wasn’t enough to support my youthful expenses. I remember wishing I earned just a few dollars more hourly & then all my needs would be met & everything would be “perfect”.

Years later, I was 21 & working at my first real job in corporate telecommunications. I was earning a nice livable wage with awesome benefits & a sweet yearly bonus. I was making three times the amount of my first job where I’d wished for just a few dollars more for everything to be “perfect”. I moved out of my parents home, shopped when I wanted and furnished my first apartment with no monthly payments due – yet, everything wasn’t “perfect”.

It never is.

Truth is, the more we earn the more we consume ☞ the more we want.

That’s just the way it is. Imagine if I had my 21-year-old income at the age of 16? In retrospect, everything seems as tho it would’ve been perfect but I’m doubtful that would’ve been the case.

Ever have a moment when the importance of your material possessions seem pointless in the face of something far more urgent? Like a health scare or losing a loved one? Moments that bring what really matters into perspective and your point of view is clarified with magnified precision? I’m sure we all have at some point. Makes you look around at all the stuff you’ve managed to accumulate throughout the years with a sudden urge to just do away with it all!

What we need can be contained in a rather small space.

What we have is often a reflection of varying moods, impulses, deals disguised as “opportunities” and self-indulgent must-haves.

Decluttering my office sparked this post but then it morphed into something deeper such as values and the true definition of a ‘prized possession’.

So let’s discuss: what you need versus what you want.

How do you define the difference?

the toothpaste pimple solution demystified…finally!

by now, I’m sure anyone whose ever had a pimple is well aware of the old toothpaste “remedy”: dab some toothpaste on it & it’ll dry out overnight or come to a head overnight or vanish overnight or… you get the pic.

sooo, imagine my frustration when every attempt at this “remedy” failed me. I’ve tried it many times over the last decade or so, (it’s an age-old trick that’s been around forever) but nada, never worked for me. I gave up on it long ago!

THEN, while perusing YouTube and checking out some of my fave channels, there it was, yet another person raving about it. I listened with eyes rolling until she said something that clicked… the importance of the TYPE of toothpaste used! Huh?

She stressed that it ONLY works with 100% white paste-based toothpaste. hmm? I lean more toward gels & never really thought it mattered….

She went as far to suggest using ONLY Colgate’s Clean Mint. Dab it on the pimple & let it sit overnight to see a difference in the AM. well, I went out & found said toothpaste then tried it last night and it worked!!! {wild applause & high-5′s all around}

my annoying lil blemish was all red & tender last night. I applied a dab of the paste on it & went to bed. work up this morning & the paste hadn’t budged, with past attempts, the paste tends to evaporate during the night but not this time. when I washed my face, I noticed the pimple had come to a head so I hope to see it leave in a day or two.

one word of caution: you might wanna avoid this if you have really sensitive skin or all-over acne. it’s best for the occasional or isolated blemish or two.

so there it is, FINALLY, got it right! am the only one? has anyone else tried the old toothpaste-blemish-be-gone trick?

love on yourself @ size 2 or 22

came across this pic yesterday & pinned it so decided to blog about it too…

she loves herself & that’s beautiful. every woman should, no matter the # on the scale, the dress or the jeans. being healthy is of the utmost (of course) but self-love is as well & all too often the images we see create an environment of self-hate & that needs to change. if you want to be ripped & toned, fabulous. if you’re fine with curves and a fuller-figure, wonderful. just take CARE of yourself & love what you see because that’s often the hardest workout of all. – VNikol